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_{16년 9월 26일
dear nini senior,}

_{i feel all sorts of silly; i haven’t even started my letter for you and i’m already getting ahead of myself, numbering everything i had to say. i hope i don’t miss out on anything; it isn’t everyday that i get to write heartfelt letters to everyone i care for and i’m so glad i can do this right now for you. words fail to express how much i look up to you, especially since i know how deep your training roots go. i don’t say it much but i’ve see just how much you’ve had to endure, all of your hard work blossoming into your future that you now call present. you’ve worked so hard and you’re deserving of every inch of success you hold. you’ve done nothing but make everyone proud, and i can’t say just how happy i get whenever i see your pretty face on the screen of the television, or hear your group name being mentioned— hence, even seeing a pretty picture of yourself along the rest of the members excite me to my wit’s end, gearing into more anticipation of what’s to come.}

_{to be honest, i look up to you probably more than you think so. training isn’t easy and it isn’t always fair— it isn’t all the time that our hard work gets noticed and even if they do, it sometimes doesn’t feel enough. but i notice them, ever since i entered the company, i’ve always seen that small star beaming brightly. and look what we have now, an entity of a star filled sky, a whole galaxy in the form of jennie kim herself! ㅋㅋㅋ and even though there were— er, should i say ‘are’— times when it doesn’t go your way, i still hope that you continue to smile beautifully. nothing ever beats a long day of training than being able to shoot them down with that ethereal sunshine you possess.}

_{i’m not an envious person— i had never found much sense to be envious of others who possess something i don’t have. instead, i always thought that if i worked hard enough, when it comes time, i’ll have it too. but if i were to be envious of one person, it’d be you. because unnie has endured so much under all those stressful times but look at you now. you’re the embodiment of the person i aspire to be: strong and confident, along with a pretty heart too.}

_{i expect things to be hard on you sometimes. maybe there’s times when the pressure builds up and it all becomes unbearable? we don’t see each other as much anymore, you with your own schedule and me with mine as well— lessons aren’t really easy to attend to while multitasking sneaking into places here and there and i think you know this as well as i do. there’s times when i notice the exhaustion in your eyes, the wariness in your voice. there are times when i’m not keen, when i’m bad at observing, but if there’s anything i hate to see, it’s you smiling and bearing the weight of everything on your small shoulders.}

_{i’m here. i’m always here. whether it’s to listen or to talk, i’ll always be here.}

_{with lots of love,
nini junior}