_{Aigo… thank you. Thank you so so so much. But before I get to this, there’s some things I wanna address and there’s quite a few that I wanna say… back.}

_{If there’s one thing I’m immune over, it’s our differences. I’ve accepted it a long time ago and like you mentioned, we’ve learned how to handle things better. It’s okay if you have a hard time trusting people, even me. It’s okay if you can’t talk about things as easily as others do, or even as much as I (hardly) do. Even if you don’t get there at the end of the day, it’s okay. There’s no standard to what you have to do. You choose that on your own. Sometimes forcing things only keep us from ‘it’ in the first place.}

_{Speaking of that, you don’t have to be a certain way. Your old you is part of you and who are you now is still you. Without either, then… you’re not exactly yourself, right? It’s natural to miss how things used to be. And I say this in behalf of myself since, you know, I find myself reminiscing often too. I’m no preacher, I’d be stuck in a rut every now and then. Just like you. Just like everyone else. We’re not gonna be the same to everyone. There’s the person that we see within us, the person that people see in us, and the person that we really are and there’s no definite benchmark for that last bit, no reference, no instructions. We may not even know who we are exactly despite old age and wisdom. So, a precise definition of ‘me’ is just… an ideal. I don’t know how much of this is making sense but… yeah.}

_{You’re strong, too! I don’t know how you fail to see this… and I wouldn’t even compare your situation with mine, mine with yours. It’ll be a stretch as it’s all too different but in your own way, you’re a strong person, too. You haven’t given up, not once (or at least as I’ve seen). You have many aspects about yourself that’s admirable, too. I’m not passing on compliments just for the sake of it, by the way. I just thought… you’d need a reminder every now and then. You don’t need to revert to your old self. If people around you can’t accept what you’ve become, then… they’re just not worth keeping, right?}

_{Anyway! I don’t say this often because it sounds really… narcissistic, but I guess I’m proud of myself too. It has been a long time and I’m happy you were there beside me. Even if it’s not for all of it but for the most part. I’m grateful. I know I wasn’t there for you for all the time either and if it’s any consolation, I wanna be there for the rest of it so long as you allow me. No promises but, I want you to know I’m willing to work towards that.}

_{That’s really admiring, how you think of my success as an inspiration. Not many people can do that. And if there’s anyone who knows that best, it’s me. You were there. You know about my envy for the people who’s had it before me and getting out of that alone was hard so I wanna applaud you too for this kind of disposition. When you say you’re a sad person, I can’t help but disagree and this is one of the reasons. You may struggle than most people but you’re constantly trying. I see that. You’re not just sitting back and being sour. Just that is something. Give yourself a little more credit.}

_{I’ll always be cheering you on as well, my precious unnie. You have my back no matter what. I’ll stay true to my word at least, that I’ll hold your hand even when I’m mad. I’ll be waiting for you to graduate, of course! Even if work doesn’t permit us to be nearby, I’ll find a way. Or we will, right? I love you a lottle lotsies, too. I’ll never forget. Keep working hard like you always do, Sueji unnie!} 

_{XOXO. JENNIE}