/ anyway i updated her profile with a bit more info? it’s nothing new, it’s stuff that’s been out but just me only updating it now. i updated the disclaimer too so if people are actually interested in roleplaying with me read it pls i know it’s long but it’s important. there’s two items that shouldn’t concern anyone really but like… a lot of it are just important so we know what’s going on here. i’ll probably update stuff again once they debut since yeah of course

besides that, i’ve just been so stressed. apart from school and work and joining a directory that only added to the pressure (my fault for jumping the gun), all the teasing going on has been making me so unstable. like apart from the spazzing that’s been a hazard to my health (literally), there’s been all this slamming on blackpink rpers that’s been going on. like ok i get it i don’t really like waveriders either bc i was here through the dead period and i wasnt sitting on my ass waiting around for debut i was lit joining cults and shit to find out more about these girls i might as well be a stalker (ok that’s a creepy thing to say) but like these people talking about how we have no right to rp them just yet and we’re only gonna butcher them im just ._. rly do you rly think i’d have stayed all these years if i didn’t know what i was doing ok maybe half the time i don’t but like i’m not butchering my muse in any way so dont drag me in there.

and like… it’s not even easy? imagine rping a trainee? have you ever tried? it’s fucking hard so dont @ me i dug info left and right all these years and i grew thick skinned contacting all these relevant people i had anxiety trying to talk to just to get to know more of what my muse is and people just ??? there is nothing cute about what i do. i’m so serious about rping this muse it’s not even funny it’s fucking pathetic how much i am and like there’s all these people eating up muses who literally just slander the shit out of the idol despite all the info easily available all over something as accessible as google and then there’s people who make real effort to stay true to the character and research research but they get bashed? this bias is unreal

i’ve been so lowkey all this time and for the most part i’m really thankful my muse is well received despite the questionable ‘rping a trainee’ thing is (for those who doesn’t understand) but rly i stay away from majority of the community bc i dont wanna deal with all that mess but rly if you have a problem with blackpink rpers (especially the wonderful @jisuko @laliced @rosiechu who’s all been following them for a while now and if not as long as i have they still put effort and theyre dedicated theyre not here to play around) just dont follow me come close or whatever. block me if you want to as well idc i just want my time here to be peaceful and enjoyable convenient whatever else because i truly am here to write and as a fan, represent my (probably ult since i dont rly follow any other groups anymore) favorite artist (ever??? for whatever reason taht no one should question either way) in a way that she would want to or at least in a way that doesn’t give her a bad image

now that that’s all out idk just. i just really wanna enjoy this rn i’ve waited years i’m not appreciating all the negativity going on when i’m here trying to fawn over my girls and trying to relish the fruition of all that painful waiting and making do of what’s available esp bc bit by bit im seeing even more how much theyre worth the wait so just (knife emoji) leave me alone!!!!!1!